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the sunflower bloggery

here is our blog entries! journal, diary? whatever! managed by AR1 and Host. we type them up in Obsidian and let them simmer before posting.

blogs are sometimes signed by a headmate if it was primarily written by them during front. This is indictated with this tag style which will be the color that they prefer.

warnings of what is written will be present when it feels warranted (ie. discussing hefty shit). overall, be aware discussion of 18+ topics and some that can be triggering.

January 2026

100 questions for the webmaster(s)

The collective answers 100 questions in regards to being a webmaster.

tags:question meme webmaster online

December 2025

2025 Reflection

Reflecting on 2025, the highs and lows and my goals for 2026.

tags:personal goals reflection

I made it to 24.

A positive birthday reflection.

tags:personal birthday positive

why i gravitate toward gallery based sites

A bit of a reflection on why I tend to only manage to stay active on gallery sites.

tags:personal online ramble

November 2025

love for physical art vs my anxiety

Short entry reflecting on my flipflopped fears of permancy and loss of art and concluding that I'll make physical art anyways.

tags:personal art ramble

crying abt social struggles because of fucking course

Entry grumbling about my guilt for how I navigate feelings after social interactions and my neverending feeling of that I am fundamentally destructive in nature.

tags:personal mental health socializing self-hatred creation

Reflecting on Faith & Letting Go

Entry reflecting on my relationship with my religious upbringing and coming to terms and finding confidence in my own unverifable world view.

tags:personal religion light discussion of abuse existential creation

October 2025

Juggling Posting Art with Autonomy Wounds

Acknowlging my triggers and the impact they have on my attempts to exist and post art online.

tags:personal cPTSD light discussion of abuse online community art

Changes in my Art Process

Reflecting and noting seven changes I've made to my art process over the last months following my period of post-graduation depression & burnout.

tags:personal art

September 2025

Trouble with Polyfragmentation

A mid-length entry musing about our experience realizing we are a polyfragmented system and the horrors and difficulties with it so far as of 2025.

tags:personal plurality Ar1

Sexuality as a Performance?

A mid-length entry musing about our experience with sexuality and three theories behind why we're in such a rut with it these days.

tags:personal NSFWsexuality queerness