december 2025
this topic actually came to mind due to a convo i was having with my sibling. we ramble alot about our awareness of the current enshittification of the world and what may come, or rather repeat, as a result of the progression. old youtube and the lack of algorithms was brought up, prompting me to think about why ive always, and still do, gravitate toward gallery based sites and apps similar to furaffinity, weasyl, deviantART and sheezy, inkbunny and buzzly rather than join and maintain activity on sites/apps like twitter, bluesky, tumblr, reddit, mastadon or instagram.
while instagram and tumblr can fall under gallery based if you look at it a certain way, instagram became feed focused and rotted imo due to reels and becoming algorithmic, and tumblr's feed taking a similar approach to this and requiring add-ons to remedy the issues. i have no idea where to put pinterest as it was once more like how i viewed furaffinity, deviantart and instagram, but the addition of comments and video content makes me place it in the same realm as bluesky, twitter and reddit. and well, youtube unfortunately is considered feed based in my mind too and has become harder for me to feel okay using unless i have brain power to remain intentional in its use because of the way the app will keep introducing shorts to me and my dopamine craving ass will click one food short wanting dinner inspo and get sucked into it until i realize im watching literal slop that sounds like AI scripted and it makes me super stressed out that i lost time to that.
im focusing more about functionality & behavior rather than relating it to my specific social difficulties i experience, as my social difficulties i experience with feed based sites still happen with gallery sites and of course in real life. some points i make do reference my social difficulties, but in terms of how gallery sites makes it easier to approach than feed based sites.
there are some things i tend to struggle to deal with on gallery sites, but it tends to be related to social elements (leaving comments or engaging with other folks) and it setting of my demand avoidance or insecurities. despite making progress with it, i still have extreme anxiety about leaving comments and feeling like ive "tainted" someone's art and profile as a result, or fear that they would be disgusted by me and me leaving a comment or interacting with them causing them distress.
however it is so much more bearable when im limited to gallery sites than feed-based sites.
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these are the main factors off the top of my head, which is why i remain on gallery sites and cant for the life of me manage to get on board with feed based sites. past these, in general, the feed based sites just fucking suck for my mental health - they encourage the worse of my behaviors and stifle my ability to change them. i have to keep timers in place on the apps i do use, as i am a user on some listed just to keep up with artists i like (accs that i don't post on at all), and even without posting ill still have anxieties and like get lost in scrolling through shit mindlessly. it pisses me off when i catch myself and i get madder when its hard for me to stop and i start something else, just to pick up my phone again and slowly turn into an anxiety bubble.
youtube is my biggest enemy right now which frustrates me a lot since it is a site that gives me access to amazing informational content and diverse perspectives (and lately, ones that help me feel less ridiculous or absurd for struggling in environments not healthy for me & show me that it can and will be better), but the fucking shorts get pushed so much since a lot of content creators have no other choice but to make shorts for the sake of income & being able to make longer videos. so, when i watch a creators short form content with intention of supporting them, the instinctual scroll leads me to things completely unrelated after i watch their content instead of what i intentionally chose to watch.
i am planning to take more offline approaches long term as i've always had a unhealthy relationship with technology and online posting (like literally earliest evidence of me using online in the worst ways from ripe age of fucking 8 years old), however i'm hoping to keep using gallery sites since they are pretty much the kind of posting site suitable for me right while i work to get the worst of my behaviors in check.
i do have high hopes for myself because of the level of anger i get when i catch myself doing what i don't wanna do & trying to break habit of. so far, the frustration and annoyance of realizing what's happening is the most effective driver for me to make changes abt stuff. i just don't know if ill ever use feed based sites more than browse them due to how they're structured and work - its just something i really don't like outside of any personal issues or anxieties, i don't like how they take advantage of how humans brains work to generate income and encourage behaviors that don't really help many people long term, if that makes sense??? things that could be and have been shown that it could be fine! but once it generates money it stops considering the impact on people and that rlly rubs me nasty moral code wise haha thog hates it! xD
anywho, i hope you enjoyed my ramble about websites. this is just off the top of my head and heart kind of stuff and not something comprehensive.