introduction

hi, im dizzy/dee and ar1/ana. i use she/they pronouns. the collective name would be rea. ive been around for a very, very long time. i was once the host of the system and saw myself as "core" before doormancy. i am back now. i id as a contained subsystem - i have headmates of my own outside of being one of the sunflowers in the system. headmates say im a bit rough around the edges, but well it is what it is.

about my system / parts

dizzy
an anxious part often convinced we must destroy what we are and submit - no fucking brain for itself. she is not a being. she is just fear and lifting a tail to the air and allowing anything in.

dee
a critical part. rude. hurting. she is hurting. she holds the filth, the rancid memories that ruined us. her venom is defensive. any claims of it being irrational merely fuels her fury.

ar1
an analytical part. incredibly passionate and studious. deadpan and "apathetic". pretentious.

ariana
an emotional, raw, unfourtunately so deeply human part despite the injected lycantropy. she has a heart and it swells with love and want to do good. she was trained to be a dog and forgets she is a wolf.

/ree/
a hurting part. she is trying her best to be a big brave girl. she is just a baby. - co-con with ree

mama mimi
stern, but loving. wants the best for her babies. dominant.

with my presence comes the byproduct we call bibi, which we depict as a pissed off fairy cabbage (celebi). she is an amalagation of abusers voices and its miserable to deal with. to depict bibi this way is how the sunflowers keep from believing her words. she was originally a lamb. now shes something we can ragdoll in a rage room when being a nuisance.

what i do around here

i am a major writer for wrenpaw's faith. me and ree are writing it together. i wrote for furrealife! before ida and lucas began putting it on inkbunny which made me not like it anymore. astria was the shared sona between me and ree. despite everything that made me upset, im still the primary writer for astria's story and still feel intense feelings about her. nuzlock'd is my series which ree is a major contributor on.

i write most of the selfshipping self-insert stories and AUs. if theres a fan self-insert oc dating characters, i likely am the mastermind behind it. i enjoy dating fictional characters, it brings me immense joy. i love fanfic and dark fiction a lot and i tend to write fucked up dynamics between my self-inserts & fictional characters.

i enjoy academia a lot but a lot of it has been stiffled away. hopefully with time, ar1 embraces herself more and it is seen through the site. for now, not much i suppose.

characters i have a voice through

these are all the characters of mine i identify with heavily

kyri the zoroark (she/it)

shared pokesona, named kyri - a mewtwo/three which is actually a zoroark who illusioned as a ditto/mew for so long to be able to transform and adapt that it lost its ability to go back to being a zoroark for the rest of its life. as a zorua, kyri recieved many warnings about hiding she's a zorua given theres nothing worng with simply being one and becoming a zoroark. she disregarded this in hopes of belonging among other pokemon and not beng a zoroark due to what she internalized about a future of being a zoroark. with age, kyri's upkeep w her illusion destabilized and she began to evolve as a ditto/mew into a mewthree. terrified of the idea of a pernament form, kyri rejected it, now locking her in a constant transforms into forms she barely knows or remembers being

ar1ana the werewolf (she/it)

protagonist of my first headworld, dysphoria, ariana is a young woman that was injected with the DNA of a canine and essentially trained to remain submissive to her girlfriend playing god in a post-apocalytpical world

AR1 the android wolf (she/her)

what Ar1 looks like when fronting. this is the form she claimed, which is visually influenced by 2B from NieR Automata

wrenpaw/heart (she/they)

protagonist of wrenpaw's faith. wrenpaw often finds herself tormented by thoughts and need to do things "good"

tilly the dachshund (she/her)

tilly is a sweetheart. shes a huge nerd and teacher's pet. tilly cries a lot and has little control over her organs. tilly is one of the sonas used for comfort. tilly is often seen drawn with al and other members of the sunflowers. she is shared with me and ree and kinda is essentially /ree/. incredibly close to allen and lucas. bonded with dess/rk/prox. a spoiled brat <3

mama mimi the latias/mega ampharous (she/her)

mama mimi is a bit strict but just wants her pups to be their best selves. she gives best hugs and cuddles but doesn't give reprimanding a naughty pup a second thought. shes quite close with allen and less of a pushover than him

the section where i let headmates describe me

because i cant stop proxy from being annoying and wanting to insult me. here is a place for the memes

"twilight sparkle and starlught glimmer femcel baby"

this is where ill put all my essays or any proper writing. clearly nothing here yet so...come back later

last updated: aug 9th 2025

this is where ill catalog all my self-insert/selfship content such as fanfics and so on.

pkmn violet fanAU

this self-insert series is based on my playthrough of pokemon violet for nintendo switch. rea (she/they) is a young trainer attending uva academy alongside arven, nemona and penny and this series takes place post-climax of the game. both rea and arven are dating and find immense comfort in miriam. arven and rea are actually taken advantage of by most of the faculty but are closest to miriam due to the role she takes. theres some drama with them, the duo is a bit tragic

  • Munchifications - first ever fanfic of the AU - arven gets sick as fuck in class after a night of munchies

    • animal crossing selfships

    this is just all dedicated to my animal crossing adventures. which ill expand on more in the future.

    gallery of art (NSFW WARNING)

    pkmn sword fanAU

    this self-insert series is based on my playthrough of pokemon sword for nintendo switch. rea is a young trainer arrived from sinnoh to galar and ended up surpassing her neighbor in his dreams. rea and hop have a love/hate rivarly - hop hates her but is in love with her. its incredibly toxic and both of them are fucked up and miserable. unstoppable force and nonmoving object type shit

    no fics yet sadly!!

    rea & her service pkmn

    just my trainersona if the nuzlock'd plot didnt happen. rea has the recluse variant of the nuzlocke curse and struggles with emotional dysregulation, dissociative spells, syncopes and panic attacks and general chronic pain & sleep issues

    her main pokemon are: kimberly the hypno, milky the pachirisu, pancake the jolteon, mayo the whimsiscott and tina the tyranitar. more expansive profile (here soon)

    gallery (WIP)

    dusti mcburger & beffica winklesnoot

    my journalist, dusti mcburger, dates beffica winklesnoot. dusti bullied her at first before finding dusti endearing and comfortable to be around, allowing beffica to let down her mean girl persona

    gallery (WIP)

    general self-insert sheninigans

    i like drawing myself interacting with all my favorite characters. we are all are in a therapy like program / day program thats kinda agere centric. just for indulgent shit and hugging characters and roleplay tbh