please use the tag filters NOW if you dont like nsfw --->

this is my art gallery of my art over the years.
i dont put every single piece here or pieces that i did for commissions.
i just try to put the more quality stuff that is most represenative of the time period and where i was focused on artistically.

tag filter meaning

SFW means it wouldnt need any kind of maturity rating.
NSFW is a catchall for things that i would mark with maturity rating because I would have to explain it in some way lol.
Explicit is well, explicit in sexual themes and show genitals/arousal OR extreme gore/triggering content.
Vent is pieces I drew as well, vent art. Emotional junk to try to convey whatever was bothering me.

2023-NOW (22 yrs old)

usernames i went by: bunearys (fA), mimisrol (furaffinity, IB - CURRENT), pachigirl48forever(CURRENT), others anon ones

late 2022-2023 was a dark ass time i would not ever return to and i am pretty ashamed of. mostly an ida/lucas/lil ree front with the most "we are broken rotten bound to hell" belief. intense isolation and toying the antisocial line since we felt too broken/disgusting. dizzy came back early 2024 with some sense to level us back out. generally this time can be summed up by finding our footing with burnout, skill regression and path to eliminate toxic shame and genuinely standing for what we like to draw. the goal is to be me; weird as fuck but just doing my own thing (do not become villian, just be unapologetically weird without reason to be hurt). pressure to assimilate or abandon self to be accepted reamins main hurdle because i constantly worry over my weirdness and poor social abilities justifying people hurting me, but yeah

2019-2022 (18-21 yrs)

usernames i went by: kyrisuz, bunearys, paddedpupper, nostalgicpuppy,xx_ra1c1-1u_xx, rea (toyhouse)

turbulent times. i was in the between appealing strictly sfw so people dont hate me and wanting to just rip off the bandaid and let the ugly nasty monster we were born as out. it wasnt long since i ran from the kyrisuz name bc of the pressure and uptick of callout posts on people and divide in how nsfw was percieved. in 2022, burnout really kicked in, i broke mentally after a pretty meh relationship, and said fuck it all due to the host split. it was now dizzy and ida and dizzy was too conflicted and went doormant, leaving ida, lucas and lil ree to handle everything and basically went into a rabbit hole powered by extreme self hate and shame, isolation and longing for some sort of way to reduce self hate

2016 - 2018 (14-16 yrs)

usernames i went by: r-ea, pizzareas, kyrisuz

during this time i got the most support artistically and was also coping with realizing i was groomed, was actively being emotionally abused & alot of tramuatic stuff kept happening irl so it just all set my illness into full motion. i was extremely unplesant online with no regulation skills. i (lucas) was most active during this. this time makes me cringe hard. if i wasnt experiencing shame before, this is where it was actively agonizing and led to why i started harming myself irl

pearlocke evolved alot during this time from just a pkmn comic to something extremely personal due to progression of illness

2015 (13-14 yrs old)

usernames i went by: pizza-rea , pizzareas, r-ea

mostly community activity and popular fandom stuff while i was an edgelord. i made fun of my "youth" and its when my symptoms started happening. things werent so deep or dramatic. i was just annoying as hell and mimicking peers

2014 (12-13 yrs old)

usernames i went by: pizza-okami and draqonpaws

i got into closed species and mostly did commissions. middle school i think started, given the whitewashing myself. the loss of rea to societal acceptance basically. im just not gonna upload all the commission work bc its not really mine, and it was ugly too.

2013 (11-12 yrs)

usernames i went by: fuzzyrisu, thatweirdwolf0, awesomelyweird, shockingokami

i found out paint.net was a thing alongside sai so my art improved some. i started making stories more cohesively. i was on IRCs, tumblr and other stuff . f

2012 (10-11 yrs)

usernames i went by: iPachieon, pachigirl48, fuzzyrisu

i was just a kid bro. i drew and posted online and talked in IRCs to ignore how girls were mean to me at school lolololol