2009-2013 - Flipnote Era

So my digitial art career began on Flipnote and Flipnote Hatena at around age 8. It was my first introduction to animating on my own after I watched my big sister animate two stickfigures kill eachother, and then I wanted to draw on my Mom's DSi too and try to make something similar with Pachirisu. Most of my time using Flipnote Hatena was me replicating behaviors of what I saw my peers doing (star begging, making animated series, doing spinoffs). I already was someone who'd make OCs (some based on toys/plushies, others from pokemon games), so now I was just able to animate all of them. Lots of my stuff was edgy. It was basically playing with my toys but through animation now, so I made a couple of fucked up stories surrounding OCs. I actually made my first internet friend on Hatena who I ended up keeping up with until late highschool. I hope shes still doing amazing. The only thing that stopped my use of Hatena prior to its closing was the DSi screen breaking or us losing internet. By the time I had a new DSi to draw with, Hatena got closed down and I'd already graduated to using UDraw, a 3DS and DeviantART.

2012- 2014 - Early DeviantART Kid

From what I recall, I learned about DeviantART through my friend on Hatena as it allowed us to keep in touch. It worked in my favor because now I had somewhere to upload my art I'd draw with my UDraw Pad, Inchworm Animation on the 3DS and other forms of mediums. My first account was Pachigirl48. At this point of my digital age, I wasn't really influenced by anything specific except the mediums I consumed and all the roleplays I was doing at the time. Having to access DeviantART via my first laptop also led to me exploring to web to its full extent than what I'd do at our public library (which was spent playing flash games). I found out about online Pokemon roleplays and joined chatrooms, started to use Youtube to post speedpaints, vlogs and toy adventures and more. A chaotic kid with unsupervised internet access. Yeahhh, nostlagia makes this time seem the sweetest because it was in the way I was generally happy go lucky. There was things occuring that weren't great. Going through files led to finding a couple of documents showing first signs of how i should have got some help or pulled aside in class. Eventually I started to get deeper into Deviantart communities after losing interest in IRC roleplay, repeatedly getting caught and banned off deviantART for being under 13 and ultimately wanting to really just draw and hone my skill and join stuff that felt more up my alley. My baby online era ended after I got banned from FuzzyRisu if I recall correctly.

2014-2019 - Depths of dA

Note that this era occurs during the peak of teenagerhood.....2014 - 2019 was the time I was 13 to 18 years old. I sucked. And it makes me cringe on how bad I sucked. I think teenagerhood sucks but to have forced strangers to witness it too, I need to apologize for that.
My first account I got socially serious about art on was ThatWeirdWolf0. The same time of having this account, I'd also had joined Furaffinity for the first time and I'm pretty sure I got my first tablet around this time too. The start of TWW0 was like FuzzyRisu, and then the closed species boom began and that started to influence my work and me wanting to get in on the whole thing because MONNEEYYY. And at the time of being hella poor middle schooler, hell yeah lemme get 500 points that could be transferred into money to buy food. I went through a couple name changes during this era after I started to get something going for myself. My style changed to be more gritty at this time and honestly I think it's the ugliest shit and it's hard to look back on this stuff. It was really an awkward stage of my life. It's crazy how I went from Pokemon esque cuteness to....uh, this stuff. I guess that comes with learning new programs and wanting to try all the tools. I wanted to be like people I looked up to, my senpai's (which most of them i harrassed not on purpose but poor social understanding and belief they hated me). After TWW0, I think I turned into pizza-okami (the cool guy), and then I moved to iced-cyote --> draqonpaws. I'd become a certified Furry at this point. Early dA was lousy in the way it was a lot of middle schoolers beefing with eachother over unimportant shit or oversharing to eachother. I remember all the cringe suicidal journals I'd make. I contributed to a era of teens tramuatizing eachother and I don't know how much more I can apologize and try to repent for it. It's so embarrassing when I look back on it and I wish someone hit me upside my head and took away my laptop. Like there was a time I did get in trouble for venting online, but it was because I said I was pansexual and I had to go to church and sunday school which is obviously been ineffective.

My time between r-ea / pizza-rea / pizzareas was some of the worst rea behavior online from what I remember. Like my unwell behavior was evident on earlier accounts now it was on full view because I had a lot of people who did view me with respect (why?????). My art was atleast cuter...? Lol. But I was personally a shithead for reasons that have many explanation and flags showing Yeah something was up but don't exscuse my annoying behaviors which being online and expected of stuff helped. I pretty sure i had a LOT of nsfw accounts at this time around being 15/16. This was just the build up to my time on Kyrisuz where I was Unhinged and got a following due to my meme animations.Um, it wasn't a good time and progressively worsened the more i felt pressured which jumpstarted my neurotic behavior and eventual psychotic episode. Like I was dealing with both school issues (low income high honors student feeling shame/guilt and isolation from peers and needing to go to college to prove family and community wrong and prove peers wrong and ect) and online issues (people saying they like my work but seeing them angry that i got support so feeling guilt/shame for getting support and like i cannot move a muscle without possible punishment, shame or be punching bag if i spoke up for myself). I wouldn't wish it on anyone because I'm still messed up from all of that. i would have rather been nothing during this period just so stuff didnt feel so....unable to move past it or not feel guilt to this day. Maybe one day I will be able to look back and feel grateful for the good (like people were kind and supported me) but this is just a hard time to look back on, not out of hiding from my own mistakes (which there are plenty) but because i was seriously unwell, and i could not keep up with an image that people build into me and like. It just all fucking sucked and I'm just now overocming a lot of that shit.

2020-2023 - the rawring 2020s

After finally dropping Kyrisuz to try to get freed from shackles, I stayed on the low (i did not stay on the low i was more unhinged elsewhere now as a certified adult who could post PUSSY IN BIO) and just used toyhouse and so many different twitter accounts which each got deleted within 3 months because I'd start to feel like I was gonna be struck by god and killed by mutuals for being now publicly too weird and unusual. Toyhouse is the only one that survived until it got closed down by staff because id started to post on inkbunny in late 2022 i think? either later 2022 or early 2023. whenever i threw up my hands and said "fuck this shit i hate everyone tbh and im going to be weird since im so weird and killable by definiton anyways!" anyways yeah our twitter accounts were usually nsfw centric or private vent accounts id overshare so much on. and then id delete them. and then id make a new one, wash rinse repeat until i Finally got free of the twitter shackles once they introduced the views feature. all it took was reminderr that im percieved xD

though, my time on twitter is what made me stop caring about what i draw because i would not be able to escape the backhanded furry shame politics. I'd sit back and go "tnhats fucking stupid and hypocritical theyre doing the same stuff theyre bitching about in a different color". but it did atleast help me realize i do not give a fuck and atleast be chill with those themes and learn to do it anyways. like whether i was a feral artist, purely sfw babyfur or drawing fucked up furry art of abuse, people were gonna still accuse me of being on the same level to who preyed on me and take advantage of people like I was. I realized i was a system around this time and was pissed at first but eventually we decided to work together instead of keep fighting it. i used tumblr for not very long for objectum and system reasons before again discourse drove me away. from what i recall inkbunny became main place of posting? and then i used mastadon for like, a few months, found a rabbit whole which ultimately led to me not wanting to touch mastadon ever again or much of any socmeds since its just same shit different skin/ui and crowds, just more naseuating because it made me realize that damn even as an adult my dumbass will still get groomed. People will find ways to control other people no matter the age. and at that point id seen the worse of the worst from both sides of the internet. im not built for community spaces. im not built for much of what the internet became and is.

2024 - 2025

I exploded and went into psychosis again due to IRL giving me the one two. Graduated college and burst into flames from a lot of stuff going sad for me lol.