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vessel id	black american
other ids	alterhuman ~ shapeshifter, werewolf, vampire, demon / ABDL / plural
dob	december
gender	demifluid
pronouns	it/its, she/he/they
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brief history

I am neurodivergent and mentally ill with some chronic physical issues. I really don't hide what I struggle with but I'm trying to work on not focusing so hard on them controlling how to live life. I have a Bachelors in Psychology due to 17 year old depressed Rea wishing to get so good at understanding the brain to where it could fix itself and be the most perfect human. I am the youngest child in my irl family - many says that explains a lot.

I've had many aliases which I abandoned due to becoming overwhelmed everytime. The notable ones people tend to remember me from are pachigirl48, kyrisuz, and mimisrol.

I currently lurk around different websites but can be found active on Furaffinity and Youtube. I can't really use Use social media because it sets off my worst symptoms ever.

being an artist

Art is a form of communication for us. Basically, its alot harder to mask who I am or what I feel when I make art - and quite frankly I don't think I can. Creating art allows me to bypass the limitations placed upon me by society and our bodily vessel, giving us a chance to feel or connect with other humans in the ways that matters to us. Art gives us as a system a way to articulate what we feel, experienced or seen. Art gives me that freedom to do whatever the fuck we want and not be bound to things I have to accept for what they are. The freedom that art gives us complicates our ability to sell art, as I kinda (pretty much) survived off selling art throughout my formative years. Untangling that is kind of a work in progress, lol.

I am a multi-media artist. I have always been more of a digital artist due to my history with commissions, but I dabble into all forms and want to embrace mixing mediums the more I age. I am not great at any single one in particular, but that's the beauty of it! I draw, write, sculpt, sew, paint, craft and make all sorts of shit whenver I get out of my mind prisons and use my hands. I grew up with dreams of being an animator. It is one of the forms of medium I interpert my life through and continues to be a way that helps me healthily process the world, so I still do have some dreams to animate some sort of project before I die. I'd love to either make or work on an educational children's show (like the many I watch) if I ever make something professional or to be remembered. I want to make what kinda helped keep me alive and brave <3

And my feelings on others interacting with my art: you have free will. Quite frankly, I can't stop and haven't been able to stop people from doing what they want with my art or characters in the past anyways. All I can do is just ask that people are respectful and don't do the shit that freaks me out, and if you do do some shit I don't like, don't fucking tell me about it!!!!

being plural

content focus & themes

I like to explore heavy themes and topics that can lead to, er, discussion. It's hard for me to not write about the human experience, both the beautiful and nauseating parts. I hate to water things down or filter it out for it to be tolerable. Because of this, I create with adults as an audience in mind. I am very agaisnt minors consuming my work even if the themes aren't mature because I dont wanna be blamed for someone doing dumbass shit and misinterpeting my stories as some sort of gospel or more than fiction.

My story beats typically revovle around misfits or members of groups that feel alienated from the rest of their community and having to cope with childhood tramua (almost always intergenerational tramua and the cycle of abuse). I prefer to write characters that share similar struggles I have because it comforts me and helps me feel less ridiculous in my constant fight with my moral OCD and psychotic breaks due to my relationship with my own family and its impact it has on how I navigate the world. I make art that appeals to me, and if it doesn't appeal to me, it doesn't get pretty far. You guys just get lucky and get a chance to see some of our ideas & daydreams come to life.

stance on censorship

My go to saying with my stance on art censorship is: fiction is a realm you can explore the horrors of reality. The why and how someone goes about it isn't my business. As long as it isn't endangering folks or encouraging harm IRL, I don't give a fuck. Draw and/or write whatever. Keep it tagged if you're posting it so people can curate their online experience and spaces, and dont use fiction for any lame ass antisocial bullshit. And like, be respectful about it - if you don't like it, then don't look or engage. If an artists says "don't call it xyz", then don't do that.

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Software - Art

• Krita - i like the brushes a lot
• Clip Studio Paint Ex 1.0 - i need to upgrade at some point but so far u cant fix what aint broke.
• Aesprite - pixel art or site graphics
• Fire Alpaca - i grew up using it, its got features the other programs dont have that i like.
• Blender - 3d modeling and 3d animation
• DaVinci Resolve - editing

Software - other

• LibreOffice Suite - basically Microsoft Office, but open source :) does the same work! only limit experience is Libre Draw isnt as versatile as Adobe Abrocat
• Ezgif - super versatile and i used all features
• combinepdf - when i need to quickly make pdf files - i edit stuff with libreoffice draw after combining
• postybirb - helps with multi account managment and posting due to headmates having their own spaces

hardware

• OS: Windows 11 (wanting to migrate away), Linux Mint
• Devices: a PC my brother built up, Thinkpad, Motorolla G Stylus, Gaomon PD1161 (sponsor), XP Pen G640, Gaomon M10K (sponsor)
• Gaming: Nintendo Switch 1 & 2, 3DS (modded)

traditional supplies

i really use whatever i get my hands on but...

• cheap composition notebooks for journaling, doodling and worldbuilding/comic planning
• index cards to remind headmates of stuff
• crayons and color pencils for low stress drawing
• acrylic markers for large pieces
• crayola air dry clay, sculpey III, DAS air dry