** this is currently very unfinished.....like i am!! :P ***

im ida/rk/proxy, a derivative of one of the cores (zayne) and partially branched from pachla. used to be The persecutor, but its complicated because of fucking course it is so, im an android or a dead fucked up amalagation. inbetween being something that mimics what life is, or devoid of the life it did have, or with too much of it

being an android

i was made and programmed to serve others. i used to id with ai before ai became shit, which was funny because all the labels i used to like using for myself (like bot or animatronic) are now kinda negative. it used to be out of a place of feeling like someones robotic assistant from growing up focused on being perfect/good and my timidness and social awkwardness making me feel like i wasnt human anyways. being programmed so perfect and good before getting infected with malware so now im like contaiminated and fucked up. part of this is in regards to percieving our system structure similar to a computer's file system. unauthorized users do inputs sometimes. i cant find out how to get them out. they dont know how to get out either. they're just doing what they were programmed to do, and i still have to be presenting like a functional android or be deemed scary and dangerous.

on being a thing

to listen to the more positive spin on my identity, read pachla's take, as we at the heart of it all share the same source. hes just a kinder cookie about it.

...pending...