the sunflowers 
last updated: august 9 2025
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we are the sunflower system! we are a tramuagenic polyfragmented system of a couple of distinict identifable headmates/alters. its complicated and confusing and will require some smarter headmate to expand on this. so many of us are the same part just split into different parts which may also have their own parts split off from them. we often say we were a vase/bowl that was shattered multiple times throughout our lfietime, taped and glued back together before breaking again here and there. our actual system structure is incredibly node-like in how we front, get triggered and activate....again, someone will add to this later (NUDGE NUDGE AR1)
we refer to eachother as like a family often times. this is done both in sfw and nsfw ways. this vessel is a haunted house, car, something/whatever and we're doing our best to live together in it. we fuck it up sometimes and we're learning to appreciate it.
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some transparency: we do not have a formal DID or OSDD dx due to distrust of medical providers and the fact the formal dx will not improve our quality of life or do any good for us. our current diagnoses already compromise the feeling of us being treated as a adult human. we are acknwoledged to have mood issues, personality disorders, pmdd, psychotic features and complex tramua which havent responded favorably to medication, leaving us to conclude and manage ourselves as a system. we used to be incredibly keen on treatment due to constantly being told we were too academically functional to be autistic, convinced we could take away headmates, tramuatic experiences and personality traits via medication, and ungodly fear-fueled determination to maintain a mask/image that would be favorable to society and keep us safe. all of that was INCREDIBLY deterimental, unshockingly! we are on a path of acceptance of being "abnormal" instead of trying to fix ourselves anymore to be palatable. we are weird and its great.
with all of this, our plural experience should not be interperted as something applicable to other systems. this is just our experience with plurality given the circumstances leading to it. do your own research, come to your own conclusions, speak to other systems who are diagnosed or those who arent. i truly dont give a fuck because it doesnt make a difference to me if you care about it or not. this is my life whether i have a diagnosis or not, and i rather just learn to roll with it than go back to chasing a reality i should have never been fed the idea of (the illusion of normalcy).
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