on our plurality

CONTENT WARNINGS: references to abuse, self harm, suicide, drug use in art & writing on this page. no filter here.

its a mess and varies on who you ask in headspace. we use multiple terms that mean the same thing for different things. we kinda forge our own vocabulary and terminology too as a way to avoid using official terms that might piss people off ?? (some headmates will use it anyways cuz they dont give a DAMNNN!) overall we are polyfragmented with mixed sources, factive & alterhuman heavy and currently all over the god damn place.

ive been open about being plural since 2022 or so. shit tracks back to around 2012 (see archive. various sources, at the end of the day, i dont want the why to matter. the goal is working toward acceptance and finding ways to live where we are all relatively happy and not as scared and can work together.

DISCLAIMER: i am very, very, very unqualified to be looked at as a reference for experiences like this. i use plural instead of state i have a particular dissociative disorder due to lack of clarity about what the fuck is wrong with me outside of being diagnosed with the various letters of the alphabet & trying to accept im unlikely to get the help i need, thus i figure it out myself. overall, do not look at my experience and view it as something certain or whatever. especially as we as a collective aren't uh, the most posiitve and happy about this brain arrangement

im personally someone that believes everyone no matter quality of life or past experience is some flavor of plural & that its actually fucking awesome to be plural, but the amount of fragmentation & dysfunctional (or lack of) communication is where the element of disorder comes in.

our structure

our structure is confusing, but we have started to map a bit of it. something along the lines of whats pictured here minus the many fragments and subsystems. those that want to share more will in other parts of the site.

dialouges by headmates

heres mini blogs, thinkpieces and other stuff written by headmates where we try to explain our experiences. general content warnings for child abuse, self harm, suicide and beliefs that we can identify arent in alignment with physical world

reflecting on how i was a protector - ar1ana resigns from forcing us to be a proper office bitch
on being a werewolf - ariana talks about being a werewolf
on being broken - proxy talks about being infected (WIP)
on being a marysue - pachla talks about the struggle of being visible and being free (WIP)
kyris story - lucas talks about growing up masking and rejecting our original identity (WIP)
on being a witness - host talks about being a gatekeeper (WIP)

co-con

meme redraws we do to convey parts of our plural experience. click on the redraw to see what the original/reference is!

vent diary logs

i was running a side comic site under the name recaptchafailed.neocities.org before one of our headmates nuked it in frustration. so, heres the comics compiled without the original context or dates.